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I was away for two weeks, between surgery and recovery and the whole time I either slept on a hospital bed or a newly purchased power recliner and now I find myself unable to sleep in my own bed. I tried for a couple nights an each night I was up once or twice every hour and got no rest. So last night I moved into my living-room and slept on the recliner….and slept almost the entire night.

Now I beg you bare with me as I ramble through this post but I also wanted to talk about my trip to Kroger today. Normally I ride the disabled persons cart because quite honestly with my health I needed it, and will continue to need it for a little while. But today I only needed a few items, Eggs, Bread for a friend staying with me to make sandwiches and some hot pockets (also for my friend). So I decided not to use the power scooter cart thingy today and hoof it. I know that may not sound like a big deal to some of you, but it wasn’t until recently that I could walk more than 100 feet before the pain in my back was so back I couldn’t move. I’m pretty much now able to walk about 1/4-1/2 mile distances at my own pace and today I walked around the grocery store without issue. So thank god I got some good rest last night.

Finally I wanted to talk to you about some of the issues I’ve found with eating. I’m finding it difficult to reteach myself how to eat. I’m still getting too much food from the fridge and have to put most of it back when I eat and I often find I’ve eaten too quickly which is painful. I only share this with you because for me so far it’s been my biggest struggle and if anyone who reads this that has had bariatric surgery has any suggestions please comment or email me @ step...@findinglean.com. And on that note I’ll let this ramble come to an end in the hopes more coherency finds its way into my entries in the future.

~rev (441 Pounds)

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And so my journey begins. Little more than 2 years ago I finally quit smoking (thanks to Chantix) and at the same time I went on another diet…needless to say it didn’t work. Actually in the end losing weight has never been a problem, but keeping weight off has. So back in October I went on the Akins diet to drop some fast weight so that I was able to have bariatric surgery.  weeks ago (ish) I had surgery. Check the About section for more info.

Ultimately my goal is to get my weight under control because at this point I can’t walk or stand for more than 45 minutes at a time (and before October I couldn’t stand for more than about 5 minutes). From here as I lose weigh I have a list of goals that I not only plan to hit but as I accomplish them I will post here. My goals range from things the average healthy person may take for granted like mowing my own yard to bigger life goals like visiting Ireland and buying a motorcycle and taking some weekend scenic rides.

So this isn’t day one, you are joining me at the point I’ve lost about 90 pounds but I have a long way to go. Above is an album that has a few pictures of me at various sizes. Each day I post I will sign off with a picture of what I looked like that morning. I know I’m big but in time that will change so I won’t hide what I am or what I look like today because tomorrow and each day forward will be that much less of me.

Thank you for joining me on this journey and I welcome your comments, questions, or stories of your own journey. If you want you can follow me here or on facebook or even twitter. (I’ll warn you my twitter feed is full of sarcasm.) I look forward to tomorrow and the next day.

~rev (442 Pounds)